Waiting it is not fun!

Well I am waiting, Waiting for the dizzyness to go away. waiting to here if the disability will be granted. Waiting to see if my 18 year old daughter is going to stay sane or in the first flush of freedom do something she will regret. The thing is all these situations have one thing in common. I can't control the out come it is out of my hands and I hate to wait.

I am bundled up in my chair with ammoco the cat asleep on my feet and I am trying to wrangle my thoughts that are so much quicker than my slow typing. I am considering changing doctors after the disability is done cause it is so hard going to the office there is still that part of me that thinks if they had left me there i would be so much better off but then again this maybe a gift that I have not got the ability to recongnize.

Thinking that perhaps if i can just lay all this out before God maybe he will take it from me once and for all and then i will have a measure of peace, still even though the dizzyness is not gone i am not throwing up and that means so much to me.