The best thing to do?

At this point i have gotten up fed the sweetest horses in the world, had one and 1/2 cups of coffee and my bath. Have swept and picked up a little Just still feel bad can't decide if i want to fix lunch or go back to bed. Will probably fix lunch fiqure out what to make for supper . I feel guilty if i go back to bed Why is that? Tommorrow is Lucy's 18 th birthday I can't believe she is already 18 where did my little toddler girl go? She is a little mad at her mama right now because i am pushing her to stay at school she is in such a hurry to graduate and i think on some levels i remember that feeling. She is on fire to go and do her own thing i just hope she is ready. Wayne is ready for her to venture out of the nest i think he needs me more than lucy does these days . I seem to be doing better i can get wistful in a heartbeat but that is nothing new.