Today has been a mixed blessing like alot of my days it seems It seems that The Good Lord means for me to learn how to confront people especially people who i love and have the hardest time confronting. I had always sorta viewed robert and I as the lucky ones as far as the five siblings go my child hood memories are mixed and somewhat blocked but today was like having a scar ripped off your body. The whole time the conflict was going on i kept saying I can't hear what you are saying now don't you know that you are Hurting me Why would you do this. You just told me how when this happened to you how it hurt you that is what you are doing right now. Before I would have A) given Lip service and said I agree with you ,B Changed the subject and left as quickly as possible . Today it just rose up in me and i tried to defend my thoughts and give example without hitting below the belt. Now that many hours have gone by and i have had sometime to ponder things I wonder if God is trying to teach me how to shift my focus or toughen up cause it is fixing to get worse I am determined not to wallow in this but the hurt of it put me back in a place i never wanted to go back too.

A plate of Chocolates

A plate of chocolates so smooth and sweet tempting

a temporary moment of bliss that would overtake the

Pain.

The pain old wounds that time and distance had dimished

Like once rough stones that had been rinsed by turbulent waters for so long that the appearance of smoothness is apparent but just under the surface the cracks await . The pain like an Old Lion roars and my hand aches to reach out and take a smooth sweet chocolate from the plate the pain numbing chocolate that will for a moment Silence the Lion.