This is where i am, physically a little better when i can make myself go into the pool everyday i move a lot better. Emotionally a lot has changed, I am working on issues with my therapist and making some progress and Then of course when you think Hey maybe i am getting where i need to be i End up in the rabbit hole of grief.
Beau my beloved Sheltie of 5 years had been losing wt and after the cruise i took him in at first the Vet thought it was heat related then it was thyroid the appropriate meds were used and proper response noted, this followed by severe nausea and vomiting loose stools. Many test later and along with other meds i thought he had turned the corner only to have him make a drastic change the next morning my vet who is a good and Godly man could only offer iv fluids , Lucy and I bundled him up without delay and headed to Thomasville. My sweet Bear died in my arms i felt him shutter and while i was praying and hoping we turned back to our vet he was dead. So 9 days later my boy is buried in my yard and i miss him so badly. Lucy's puppy Kc
has been a great distraction and he is a sweet german sheppard dog. I know that in respect to the rest of what is going on in our family, Lucy's second semester of college . Wayne teaching as a para pro with special needs kids since he could not get a teaching job . Lucy is working part time but as usual she needs money. I don't know how we will manage but it will be tighter than tight . I am doing better as far as my trust in God a dear friend told me about a sermon that Jentzen Franklin did on God is your door keeper and it so spoke to me about how i have looked at this last year as punishment instead of what it was God protecting me. Not 20 mins after seeing the sermon I learned that some other things had gone on at my old job and it was like Oh I so did not need to be in that mess Thank you Jesus. This week i have a gathering to go to gonna try my hand at baked beans and then it is time to pack for State, Chance is lame and sister will be getting x rays this week we are all praying that it will show a treatable injury something that needs time and is not career ending for this Sweet Good Horse.
My Beau
You are my Beau the sweetest eyes the dearest nose to me you were perfect from your head to your toes.
your corkscrew tail some saw as a flaw it bothered me not all.
Your mind was quick your gait was true it seemed to me that there was nothing you could not do.
The years we shared went by so fast .
I have a few photo's your toy's are still here
Oh how i miss you my dear
I went to your grave though your not really there you have crossed the rainbow bridge.
So play there my dear one run all day long in the sweetest grass and in the coolest of days
I know you will greet me when my journey is done your body restored better than before.
