now what

Now what? I am sitting here in my cozy chair drinking a cup of coffee and wondering what now? I am still having some dizzy spells and though i feel better since adjustment still sore so I have been a good girl taken the meds and the buzzing in my mind is Now what. I so wish that i would get the results of my claim. It would be part of the moving on process. Still we seem to be managing okay with bills . I just need to get across the bridge. From the old me and life to the new me and new life. Like so many things in my life the fear holds me . Had horrible dreams about work the 2 different jobs blending in mainly about the nursing home the overwhelming feeling of not being able to do it all. Each time i would wake so grateful that i was dreaming.

I have to stop and get ready have an appointment with Dr C and I am glad to be going so that maybe she can help me figure out how to cross the bridge.

How to cross the Bridge

How does the weary traveler cross the bridge as the wind blows and the river below rages.

Suddenly finding herself in the middle of the bridge the wind has stopped but the river rages on Louder than ever.

unable to move feet that have turned to stone can go backward or forward Alone.

At the end of the bridge Green meadows wait butterflies sail sweetly scented breezes blow What must I do How do I go. How do I leave the old life behind ?

It is awful these sad lines but that is what is going on in this tossed up mind so i will wait and see what is next .