So much has happened, Lucy had appendicitis and had to go to our local Ed. They were great very busy so she had to wait a good bit but as soon as they got her in the went right to work and then after Ct and labs she had pain meds and then more pain meds. The only time i thought i would lose it was when I was waiting for the nurse to bring the second dose of pain meds. It Ripped my heart seeing her in that much pain. I was able to ride in the ambulance with her I was in the front , The emt had a country rock station on the radio and I was actually bold enough to ask if I could change the station, Yep we listened to Good old K LOVE as we went through the night I had my head down praying, We had to go through the ed in thomasville this was stressful as Lucy was very scared and there was a lady moaning loudly and vomitting in the room next to us. outside our door a bipolar lady was carrying on and the staff was trying to get her in a chair. I had to just keep praying for the faceless lady's and for God to keep me together.
once we got in her room it was better then we had the wait until they finshed the admisson .
There was a nice man who transported her to pre op and he said I know you are 18 but do you want your mama to go with you ? She said yes I do so away we went and in the pre op area
it was hetic lots going on, She handled the second i v better than the first one and I thought
did a good trying to answer their questions. However the anethesiologist was sharp with her she was looking over at the nurse who had just arrived to her bedside with lots of syringes ect and he goes Hey Pay Attention to me in a rough tone, then when obtaining her consent he read it but it was like I can't be bothered.
How very hard to walk away as they took her I managed by Gods grace not to fall apart then on
to the lobby to wait and thank goodness there was Mama and eve , She did fine and we ended up staying one more night. I had so wanted her to tell me it is okay you go home when my sister came to see her she said Lucy aren't you ready for your mama go home she said Oh no she is staying with me so of course i stayed and we got through the night. Today was our second day home I have not got much done but i have been so glad to be home . The first thing that happened was mama answered my phone and some poor indian telemarker from debt relife services called and I lost it i yelled at the man it was the stress of the last 2 days I actually thought i heard sirens on the way home but mama and lucy did not hear it. That freaked me out
I have been thinking that i need to spend more time in my bible I have to know more so that when the stress comes i can handle it better I know that being around the sick people and the hustle and bustle did not help me.
It has turned cold again and everyone is pretty tired of rain but as Aunt Virgina used to say
You can control the weather I have not gotten much done today and when i saw my sister she said You look fretful I am I suppose so grateful that lucy is doing better so ready to feel better and for my claim to be settled.
So that is what has gone on with me, I remain a blessed woman ridin the roller coaster trying to cross the bridge.
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