Today has been an eventful day got a small amount of money considering that i am married with wayne and Lucy but it was for my short term disability and that was a blessing from God and we are putting it in the checking account and we spent a little wayne bought a saw and some new floor ing for the sun room! I helped just a little but quickly gave out and am sure I will pay for it tommorrow. Told mama about changing churches think it hurt her feelings and she had something to say about it. Still am so looking forward to Warehouse next sunday and Wayne said he might go with me Isn't that Great! I worked in the kitchen and have been trying to balance my time better!I am so grateful to God that he is providing for my needs and that i am feeling better in my soul the body continues to be a worry at times but that is going to get better .It is like the weight of worry is started lifting and i had a major breakthrough i have never been a good housekeeper to say the least i am not a hoarder but martha stewart i am not well when my sister and i had a heart to heart about it she reminded me that i get a pay off from keeping my house the way i have and that i needed to figure it out well i think i have part was just lazyness but part was that if it was messy mama would not come down here and then i would not have to deal with the lack of boundaries and conflict . The other part was i got tired of asking for help with wayne and lucy so i stopped. I am trying to do more loving consistent things for wayne and watching my reactions with Lucy and not jumping when mama pushes buttons.; we shall see.